I have a 9 month old. SAHM. Since I've had my baby, (which I almost died on the table during csection) I've gained so much weight, also diagnosed with PTSD, depression and severe anxiety. Also just found out I have prediabetes and possible high blood pressure. But I cant get it monitored by a doctor because I'm struggling to get a PCP. I haven't wanted sex in the 9 months post partum. Except once...

Then.........

I just found out I'm 5 weeks pregnant... from that. One. Time... me and my husband are struggling as it is. And predicted if I have another baby I may die on the table. I wanted to lose all the weight before getting pregnant...

What do I do...? I hate to abort because I'm very against it... I know. I know... this is my fault...