I lost my first pregnancy during the first trimester, if I hadnt I would be 33 weeks now. During the first few weeks after I was fine and my husband and I continued ttc,with no luck. Recently though its hit me really hard. I cry every day. I can only think about how much I miss my baby who I never got too meet. It kills me knowing I can't hold my baby in August when she would have been due. Its so hard going through this silently because I know my husband sees it as a "what it" not that I lost our baby. No one knows we're ttc so I do my best to stay strong and grieve on my own.