i just want to die. i feels like nothing goes right and week after week is the same thing. I just need a break from living. i’m so mentally tired and i can’t do this anymore. nobody really cares enough or any at all. it feels like i’m suffocating and i’m so uncomfortable everywhere i go no matter what i do. i haven’t been comfortable in forever and i love being comfortable. it feels like the only comfortable place is my boyfriends arms and i can’t rely on him for comfort because he’s unhealthy. it’s hard to leave my relationship. i get so sad and so sick everytime i come close. and all i do is get yelled at by my grandma or sit at home and do nothing because i have nothing to do and it’s impossible for me to make friends