Need to vent...
Its 2am and I'm crying my eyes out... I'm 29 year old woman whose divorced because my ex cheated on me months after we got married to this beautiful woman, I gained weight because I became dependent on marijuana to help with my depression (self medicated...what a mistake..) and I'm 90lbs over weight, I moved back home to live with my parents, and while the rest of my friends are having babies and traveling, I am now in recovery, working, and on the road to regaining my physical, spiritual, mental, and emotional, health back. My life is slowly on the up and up but I can't help but feel like sh*t now and then. I've lost friends due to the stigma around marijuana and I feel lonely from time to time even though I haven't smoked in a little over a year. Most days I'm ok but on some nights, like tonight, I can't sleep and I feel miserable. My ex has moved on, I've dated, but I hate who I see in the mirror and I have trouble loving myself let alone someone else. I feel like a loser. To top it off, my mother and I got into a stupid fight and I just had it. Shes an old-school person and can speak very cruelly at times to me with absolutely no filter. The fight tonight was "you fucking idot. I cant fucking believe you I ought to smack you". Why? Because I was painting my nails close to her favorite table cloth. I can't. I just can't. I'm dealing with alot of inner demons. I can't deal with petty sh*t too. I just want a friend to talk to...someone who will love me in the good and bad times. I wish I could have someone to call on days like these. Someone I won't have to pay to listen to me speak..just something real. I just had to share.. get this weight off my chest. Thank you for reading this far.
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