I've had a very easy pregnancy in comparison to a lot of others I know so I try not to complain if something happens. But in the past month I've developed very bad SPD or PGP, so walking around and turning in bed or any kind of movement in general is soooo painful. I've just bought a support belt though so hopefully it will help. But last night, for the 10th time, my leg cramped in my sleep and I woke up in the worst pain, and because of my SPD I couldn't do anything to help. I tried to roll as fast as I could but my my entire lower back and hips just started aching the second I tried to turn my body, so I had to lay their and ride out the leg cramp all the while waking up my fiance like I do every time I have a bad cramp. He helped massage it and got me a compression bandage for it until it had calmed down. And then I just started crying like a baby because a) I struggle to sleep as it was and I haven't had a good night in ages, b) I felt guilty for waking my partner up and feeling so helpless, and c) I genuinely think I cannot deal with this pain for another 2 1/2 months.

It's the first time I've actually thought to myself that I can't handle this pregnancy, and now I feel all this guilt for thinking it and it won't go away. I'm limping everywhere today which doesn't help my poor pelvis, and I've had to cancel all my plans too 😭 I know it's probably just hormones making me feel this way, but they suck.