Finally Pregnant

I feel so alone I have no one to talk to not even my boyfriend he’s always busy 2 jobs and school some of y’all would say I’m being mean or I don’t understand well I do 4 years we been together and I feel like I’m living his life. He never has time for me only when he wants or feel I stop every thing for him but every time I need him he’s busy or he comes over and he has to leave for work or has school in the morning. I went thru a lot to get pregnant even after his cheating and making me feel so bad for not being able to get pregnant. I never told anyone this nothing even my family but he got someone pregnant and lied but the baby didn’t make it idk what to do anymore I want my baby but I just don’t want him am I wrong for moving to N.C. please no negative comments I’m in need of a big hug....