A few days ago I started spotting. Today the spotting had more blood than usual.

I ended up going to the hospital after a couple of days being concerned and everyone telling me it was normal. Even the doctors told me it was normal. They did a pelvic exam and ultrasound and blood work.

I was supposed to be 6 weeks pregnant. The lab work came back with my hCG levels being 900 when they were supposed to be at 5000. They told me I was earlier than I thought or miscarrying. After I got done with the ultrasound they told me there was no sac. They said if my hCG level were 900 they should’ve at least been able to see a sac. So they said I had a miscarriage. That was the worst feeling when they told me that. The absolute worst. Me and my husband are trying our best to be positive and keep our head up. A friend told me “take your time to mourn the baby lost cause that was a life too, it wasn’t just two pink lines it was a baby, a actual life” that stuck with me. So as we mourn, we pray that when we are ready God will bless us with a beautiful baby, a healthy baby. So us mourning moms will get our rainbow baby one day. Whether is today, tomorrow, or months from now. It’ll come. Just pray and stay strong. We got this.