okay... i need y’all opinion. is my relationship

Toxic or not?

so backstory, me and my gf started dating in December so we’re almost 7 months in july. we’ve been thru so much, like my dog getting run over, my dad who passed away, my terrible anxiety, yada yada yada.

it started off cute and just total love. i never felt like so many butterflies, shes my first love for sure

buuut there’s always a catch 😭 she has anger issues, so when we fight she says whatever is in her head, which hurts me, and then she apologizes but we never talk about the root of the issue you know?

she’s super jealous too. there’s a coworkwr we have that she’s convinced is obsessed with me (I don’t think he is), and she guilt tripped me into telling him to no longer check me out. it embarrassed me so bad to do it, and my anxiety grew into a panic attack when i thought about having to confront someone about something id never really witnessed. I did it to give her peace of mind but she went off about how our relationship wasn’t stable bc I couldn’t set boundaries.

yesterday, he sat at my table in the break room while i was on lunch and she walked in and saw (we work together) and ignored me for two hours after. she started being nice when she saw I didn’t let her affect my day at work

we got new hires, and she just texted me “i already know this new kid is gonna try to hit on you 😭”... I said bro. why do you think like that, and why do you say those things to me?

we’ve been fighting and arguing often lately. I used to let her say what she wanted but now that I’m talking back, I have an “attitude” problem. we almost broke up when we went on vacation to cali:/

I dread going to work with her if our co-worker is there bc I know she’ll have a heart attack if he even speaks to me.

but im staying because she has such good sides. she leaves me random love notes, buys me gifts just because, my family LOVES her, idk. my source of anxiety is all her tho.

what do y’all think??