help????

so, i usually get off to playing with my clit, and fingering myself does feel good but i can’t get off to that. and i’m scared that when me and my boyfriend have sex for the first time, it won’t feel good or something. or i won’t have a reaction like he may want/expect. though he would be fine if i didn’t

i’m 17 lol, and still a virgin but that’s nothing to worry about