I feel so unloved in my home. My mom is constantly angry at me. It’s gotten to the point that our constant arguing makes me want to stay in my room all day to avoid it and then she yells at me for doing that. She constantly tells me how horrible I am to be around and will call me selfish or a spoiled brat. I feel like I am just constantly being criticized so I hate being around her. I can’t tell her any of this because whenever I so much as suggest that any of our relationship problems are her fault she will yell at me for victimizing myself and not taking responsibility. I can’t remember the last time she’s made me feel like she really loves me. I used to self harm as a way to escape it and now I turn to junk food which just causes more arguments. I’m too young to move out or anything, otherwise I already would’ve. We have a therapist but she constantly twists what has happened making it sound like I’m awful.

Yesterday I brought food up in my room which I’m not allowed to do, but like I said I turn to junk food when I’m upset and we had gotten in a huge argument. We argued about this and she shoved me before telling me she was taking my phone off our data plan and whatever. I feel so awful all the time now, I’ve had a lot of mental health issues in the past and I feel like I get no support from them. The worst part is I can’t bring any of this up for fear of just making everything worse. i feel like whenever I feel unloved or like she doesn’t care about me, she turns that into me blaming her and being irresponsible. I can’t handle this much longer, I feel like my home is where I’m supposed to feel safe.