I am very emotional right now. My husband and I have had 2 of our nieces since April on CPS orders... I know they will eventually have to go back to their parents.. I know their home life will not change.. The 1 year old was 8 months old and only 11 pounds when we got her, she couldn't even hold up her head properly for an 8 month old.. The 7 year old had missed a lot of school... My heart just breaks knowing what they will be going back into...

Then there is my baby (or babies)! That I am only 7weeks3days pregnant with. I am extremely anxious about my first ultrasound next week because I am scared there will not be a heartbeat, or a baby...because I had a mc in April. I love this baby more than life itself.. I just don't know how parents could do that to their kids!

I think after my ultrasound I will feel better.. So next Tuesday can not get here fast enough!!