I’ve always been self conscious of how my body looks. In 2015 I started my weight loss journey I was 205-210 lbs I need to loss 50-60 lbs just to join the military. It was a really rough year but I did it. I’ve been in for 2-3 year now and I’ve always maintained my body how I like it. Muscular but can tell I still enjoy cake every once in a while. Well now since I have found out that I’m carry this beautiful gift I’ve noticed some small weight gains... For someone who isn’t obsessed with their body you wouldn’t really notice but I notice and it haunts me. I know this weight gain process and journey is not going to be easy for my mental health but I know that this weight and extra calories are for my unborn child to grow and be the health little bean that I need it to be. I hope I’m not allow in this and I know it might seem selfish to not want to loss the figure that I worked so hard for but it’s hard when I don’t want to look at myself in the mirror naked anymore. I try to avoid it at all cost so I don’t become picky over something that is so simple to fix later on. I just really hope I’m not alone.