Ugh just pretty much looking to vent. So my 11 month old is my whole life . I love her so much. I always wanted a baby so bad and never thought I’d be able to have one so I’m just over the moon with her . Well she’s slept with me in my bed since 6 weeks old . I from the beginning planed to keep her in my room til a year because of the sids guideline . Well, now that I’m out of work for the summer i figured it’d be good to start now that she’s walking and doing all these other milestones . Last night was ROUGH, but tonight was better so far she’s been sleep almost 3 hours in her own room in her own crib but I’m SO sad. I miss her in my room even though i wasn’t getting good sleep while she was in there . I feel like I’m being a bad mom because when she goes into the crib at first she cries . I feel like she’s lonely in there without me . I feel like with her not sleeping in the bed with me she’s gonna lose a connection with me . I feel like I’m missing her so deeply . I feel horrible . Idk if anybody else has gone through this . Maybe I’m crazy . It’s not like I’m sleeping alone because my husband is in the bed with me still but i just miss my baby dearly. Also, i have VERY bad anxiety so i keep thinking of every possible problem like when we go on vacation where will she sleep now that she won’t sleep in the bed with us ? We do a bedtime routine but will it confuse her when we go out somewhere and we’re out past her bedtime ? Is she lonely ? She’s SUCH a happy baby i don’t want this to make her less happy .

Idk I’m a ftm maybe I’m just overthinking it