I have been doing a lot of thinking, I know not good to do because everyone and every pregnancy is different. BUT, I am so so sooooo scared something is going to go wrong. My biggest fear is I won't make it through delivery and be able to ever see the baby I carried for these long months and see the baby go. I am so scared I am going to bleed out, or my body won't be able to handle it. This is my first baby, so I have no idea what yo expect. Videos, books, and articles just don't seem to cut it on what to expect.