Ladies, i need someone to vent too.

I feel like I’m the WORST person in the world!!!

I’ve been talking to a guy for 2 years. We didn’t do anything physically within these 2 years, but we’ve kissed before. But to make this all worse, it’s my boyfriends (of 6 years) FIRST COUSIN!

Yesterday, his wife found all of our texts and i’ve never felt so fucked up in my life. She pretty much blackmailed me and said if I don’t tell her everything that happened between me & frank (the first cousin) she was going to blast the both of us on facebook and internet and tell my other half and the whole family. I’ve been crying since yesterday but the only reason I’ve neen crying is because I know my other half doesn’t deserve what I did!!! He’s been SO good to me for the whole 6 years we been together! I dont have to work, and he works 7 days a week to support for our family! I want to tell him so bad because the guilt is eating me alive but I know he’s capable of hurting hisself & I don’t want that for him. We have 3 amazing boys together, our oldest being 5 and youngest being 4 months. I’m really looking for support and I just need someone to talk too. I can’t vent to anyone about this. I’m such a horrible fucken person.