I’ve been TTC for a year and a half now. 9 months ago I got pregnant, but it was ectopic. Since February we have been trying without luck. It’s been hard and obviously sad as hell. I finally broke down and bought an ovulation kit and Preseed this weekend.

Today I found out my younger brother and his girlfriend are pregnant(they’re 19/20). Birth control baby. Both of them are nervous/excited but also totally freaked out because they are NOT ready for this.

And here I am, unable to feel anything but completely sorry for myself. The heartbreak has never been this real, and it hurts worse because I’ve dreamed of the day where my brothers had babies, but I’m so damn upset with my own situation I can’t find any joy.

I feel like running so far away.