I need to rant for a mintue. Advice is welcome but not necessary. And sorry it's kinda long.

my boyfriend and i wanted to have a threesome.

I always found woman to be sexy and I want to explore and experience being with a woman. We went to a strip club Saturday night and he paid for us to get a couch dance with one of the girls. There was a lot of touching and feeling. Mostly from him on her... I got a normal lap dance earlier and I though he was just getting a normal lap dance also . But he sprised me lol. I got to touch my frist boob.. but he also touched her boob... and sucked it... I wasn't to happy. I want to explore and try new things. But seeing that made me sick to my stomach and I wanted to walk out. He got her number because she said she would be interested in the threesome. Weve been looking for a third partner for months. I told him how I felt and he was understanding. He loves me and doesn't want anything to come between us. If I change my mind on having the threesome he said that would be fine. We would drop it. I believe him. And he just thought I would like that couch dance and he thought it would be fun.

But now I'm not sure what to do. I still want to experiment with a female, but I don't want to see him touch her at all. I want it to be fun for all of us... but I just don't know.

We texted her, and now we're waiting to see if she will text back. we don't how serious she is about it.

And he's very open and honest about everything and I absolutely love him to pieces. I trust him and I know he won't leave me for anyone. But I still got jealous. He takes my needs and wants before his own and he ALWAYS makes sure I'm completely comfortable with something before we do it.