I knew I would be sad, but the realization of knowing I'll be sad until I die is intense. So many things have been ruined for me like enjoying a pregnancy, or trying to get pregnant. How I feel about myself, being happy for other pregnant women. People with families honestly. It's just alot. Here I am 6 months later crying at 6 am while my husband sleeps because my heart is so broken that my son isn't here with me. My sweet little baby. 💔