Disheartened with obstacles

I am a single woman, 41. I’ve been through the fertility clinic testing and 3

IUI

procedures in the last 2 years with no positives other than my only obstacle is low egg reserves. I finally found a private donor who I mesh well with and trust. I had my first sample from him which I inserted using soft cup. Unfortunately I didn’t get a positive result.

Between the donation and my period arriving I attended an all employee meeting and found out that my company(I’ve been there 11 1/2 years) is being closed. As of October 1 I won’t have a job. I will leave with an ok severance package (at least half has to go to RRSPs or I’ll lose it to taxes) of 29 weeks. In Canada I can’t claim unemployment until after that 29 weeks.

I’m am definitely torn. I’ve been on my journey for 2+ years trying to have a baby. I’ve gone through financial obstacles, medical obstacles and now this. I’m beginning to wonder if fate is trying to tell me something.

Even if that’s not the case, I’m struck with this horrible situation. I want to keep trying, but I feel like it’s irresponsible to get pregnant when I don’t have a permanent job or significant other who can help out. At the same time, I’m running out of time to make this happen. I just don’t know what to do. My heart and my head are battling big time.

Thoughts? No judgements, I just want to know what others in my position would do.