I always wanted to be a mother, have a child with the person I love. I would always say that the time we created life it was gonna be from so much love. Here I am with that life I always wanted but things have gone so sideways. My anxiety has gotten sooo bad, worse than I ever had it in my life. I haven’t been able to even live with my SO because I’m so afraid of my panic attacks, to get one infront of him. I know I should let him see them but it’s not easy doing so, I’m currently seeking help from a therapist but like everything it takes time & im just so full of it.... medication aint an option while pregnant. I just never knew this could happen, otherwise I wouldn’t have gotten pregnant...