Episiotomies and natural labor

Has anyone had to have an episiotomy without an epidural or IV pain medications? I’m doing labor naturally this time as it’s my last baby and my mind is set on completing this goal and I’m going in more prepared.

One thing that’s been running through my mind though is what if I have to have an episiotomy? Will I feel that harsh cut or am I going to be in pain from labor that I won’t notice? I’m absolutely petrified. I’m debating on telling my doctor to let me tear naturally.

My first baby I ripped on my labia but it was very small and only required 3 stitches. My second I didn’t rip at all. So I’m hoping this one is going to come out smoothly too but there’s always that possibility.