Sorry for the very long post.😔 So I’ve been debating posting but I have to because I need someone’s anyone’s input or opinions. So in April I found out my husband of 10years cheated! See I wouldn’t have known about it if he didn’t contracted an sti!!🤮🤬 so this is how he played it off first before it came out. “Oh babe it kinda burns when I pee” looks at me weird 😒 I said “don’t look at me it’s probably a uti” not thinking the man I’ve been with since high school would ever do some F*ked up sh*t like that! So I made an appointment for him the next day, he went then came home like it was nothing got his antibiotics took em and told me the doc will call with results in a few days. A few days came and luckily I was home that day too...so he got the call while I was folding and that’s when I went into the room to ask him if everything was good! He said yea it was just a “bacterial infection” so I said well wtf how’d you get that!? So me jokingly said in funny tone who’d you F!? And that’s when it all came crashing down! He broke down crying how it’s Chlamydia and it was a mistake and he just got oral from some girl he worked with! I wasn’t buying it at first because well why you I? I didn’t think, I didn’t expect this...so I asked him if this is real like are you serious right now!? He said yes I’m so sorry blah blah blah! I blacked out then I don’t know what happened but I landed the best right hook to his cranium Tyson would’ve been proud! How could he do this we have a child! He not only cheated on me but he cheated on his child and what makes this so much more horrible is we had sex after this whole sh*t! I made an appointment same day to get tested (can you imagine going to you doc who knows so much about you to get tested for an sti and having to explain why or how you think you contracted it🤦🏻‍♀️) thank God I didn’t get it but In a few months I have to go back to get tested again! Never in my life did I ever think I’d go thru this shit! Next came The Who! The names who was it!? He gave me the girls name and of course I had to look her up! And of course I found her and asked her nicely ( I wouldn’t attack another woman because he’s the guilty one here) but she was totally lost like she didn’t know wtf I was talking about! Next lie it wasn’t even HER! When I confronted him about that he broke down again! Turns out it’s some girl he met on tinder(first of all why the fuck are you on tinder!!!) 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️ Oh he was trying to spare me more pain so he lied about who it was! Spare me more pain!?! MF you already F*ed up!!! Now he’s begging me to forgive him and give him another chance to prove that he won’t fuck up again, remorseful and said he realizes that he fucked up and he’ll never do it again and he sees how much he’s going to lose and he doesn’t want that! For days and nights I’ll hear him crying, yes I’ve cried and then I became angrier and bitter throw it in his face every chance I get and he’ll hang His head in shame and the tears would come again. the tears no longer come for me...I’m literally all cried out! Every chance he gets he’s corner me and beg me to please don’t kick him out or to please don’t end us. It’s now June and I’m still finding it hard to even talk to him I don’t feel the love I use to feel anymore when he touches me I don’t get that flutter anymore...he’s begging me to forgive him, he’s doing more at home even cooking (it’s not the best at all🤢) but I guess this is his way of proving himself. 🤷🏻‍♀️ he even asked if we could see someone because he doesn’t want to lose “US”. Sorry again for the long post but I just need to know has anyone been thru this ? Should I walk away from all the years I’ve invested in this man? Will I ever fall in love with him again? I know we won’t go back to where we were. But is the saying true “once a cheater always a cheater”? And just to ad I’ve never given him a reason to step out. Our sex life was always 🔥 he was my best friend...did almost everything together. Now I feel like that’s all gone because he totally broke me!