Severe Gender Disappointment

This is my third and final baby, it’s medically unsafe for me to have anymore children. I recently found out I’m having yet another girl and I’m severely depressed and disappointed. I already have one girl and a stillborn son so naturally I wanted another boy. Welp I’m not having a boy and I feel zero attachment to this baby I’m carrying. I don’t even know what to do. The disappointment is sadly to the point I don’t even wanna continue with the pregnancy and give birth. I can’t handle the disappointment or associated depression anymore, I have no one. I have no way to get any sort of help either if need be. I’m so lost on what to do. I feel like a crap mother and like I don’t even deserve kids because I’m severely depressed over my unborn child’s genitalia.

Picture so I don’t get lost..💔