It’s getting hard

I feel like am going to snap on someone one day!! I get asked by many friends,family, coworkers strangers . “ when’s the next one? Your daughter needs a brother or sister? Why are you waiting? You should you had another baby right away?”

The truth it hurts so much for ppl to keep asking me and idk how to keep handling !!! We have a almost 7 year old daughter and have been trying for 3 years now and have had miscarriage after miscarriage an Ectopic have gone and taken million of pills tried anything and everything ppl recommended seeking help! And because I don’t like sharing my struggle with others because I don’t want them to feel sorry for me or say anything mean I guess me and my husband keep to ourselves my family isn’t supportive what so ever there excuse is well at least you have one already!!! But they don’t understand

I hate when ppl ask me and I have to smile and pretend and say oooo hahaha one enough! Or I brush it off and say maybe soon ! When deep down I wanna yell at them and say I wish and I pray every night that I could give my daughter a brother or sister that I cry myself to sleep for losing my babies that am scared at the same time to fall pregnant because idk if my heart can take another heartbreak that my daughter asks me “ mommy why do you cry to daddy “

Am lucky to have such a caring husband and tells me his in for anything ! But my heart once again was broken into a million pieces to find out the one tube I have left is blocked and would need to do IVF do to my tube being to weak to try to flush it without it’s collapsing! I just pray to god for some help threw this!

If anyone read this thank you thank you for hearing me I feel like this is the only place I can let it all out besides my husband !! Because the close ppl that I trust to say everything I feel like there over it me telling them what am going threw .... and I don’t feel judged here!!

I pray for everyone here