Child support

File or not file, no matter what i do i still get told im a shit mom for not/doing it. Im struggling and people tell me to file for child support. The father of my baby wanted nothing to do with me much less my baby. He basically told everyone i aborted, got into a relationship when i was 3 months preg and is now engaged. I was doing really well on my own for several months until it started affecting my only support systems health, etc. I cant afford daycare. I applied for assistance and i know i dont qualify but im trying anyway. Im just waiting to hear back.

When i swallowed my pride and reached out to him he told me hes now facing prison and his whole life has basically gone to shit since he meet me. I ruined his life.

So am i fucked up for wanting to file for child support when he wanted nothing to do with my baby?