Over thinker

Megan • 🐾 🐾 👼🏻 💖 🌈

My husband and I just had our first appointment to confirm pregnancy, the dr we saw was very nice and sorry for our loss. ( on March 5th if this year we had a D&E, we were at 21.5 weeks when we said good bye to our daughter) this has been an emotional and tasting year. We decided we wanted to try again and it happened. After my loss I was put on antidepressants and anxiety medication which I stopped taking about a week ago when I found out that i was pregnant again because I was unsure if they were safe to keep taking. Yesterday when we met with the dr I did ask him if I was okay to continue taking them and he said if I need them then he’s fine with me taking them as long as it’s a low dose. My medicine is only 10mg he said that it was fine. I’m still having doubts on if I should take them or not but I can tell that my symptoms are coming back strong especially being pregnant and over thinking everything. The daughter we lost was due to spina bifida and hydrocephalus. This doesn’t run in either of our families. We had the screenings done that said it was a 1/50000 chance of happening. I guess I was that 1. I’m sitting her laying in bed trying to go to sleep to get up for work in 4 hours and every time I close my eyes I’m thinking of every defect my child might get and how I just want a normal healthy baby. For some reason I feel like I can’t have that. I dont know how much I can take. I’m only 6 weeks this is going to be an extremely long pregnancy. I want to take my depression and anxiety medicine but I’m afraid to.