We had our baby May 24th, 2019. I went into early labor while I was sleeping and woke up with contractions and went straight to the hospital and she was born within 15 minutes. She was born early at 23 weeks. She was alive when she was born, and died about 20 minutes later in my arms. Her lungs were not developed enough to survive. It was the most horrific experience I can ever imagine... holding such a small person that you are responsible for and there’s nothing you can do to help them. How do you help get rid of the guilt? I’m not sure how I can move on normally with my life, we wanted her so badly.