I wanna die.

I don't hate school, I hate the environment, I hate that I have no friends, not exactly no friends but I'm surrounded by toxic people, today I was left alone and hid in the toilet during my free period, I feel so pitiful of myself, if only my mom just Google 'symptoms of depression' she will understand why I always stay in bed and skip schools,always tired, easily irritated etc..I just want her to take me to a psychiatrist and get antidepressants.. I want to start feeling alive again.