It’s tough !!!!

About a month ago my uncle took his life from us & i didn’t know that it would bother me as much as it do. I literally think about him every day & I don’t know how to handle it . My mom told me to write him letters and burn them, that’s how she dealt with the death of my grandma. But that hasn’t really been helping me . I wanna go to his burial site, but I don’t think I can do that alone, but I don’t want people to see me cry ( I know that sounds crazy but I don’t like showing weakness)