5weeks 5 days

Ok so here's my story my first daughter I didn't know I was pregnant with her until 10 weeks, 2nd pregnancy I miscarried in July this year at 5 weeks 4 days and today im 5 weeks 5 days and I'm just freaking out I have a phobia of seeing blood and I'm constantly checking even if I'm out I'm going to the nearest toilet every 5 minutes just to check, I don't know quite what to do but i just keep thinking about how I'm gonna cope another 6 weeks and 2 days while I'm still in the 'danger zone' 😔😫😫😔
This baby is so so so wanted and I just need to sleep and wake up at 13 weeks 😩