Baby Blues??

Hey mommas, I’m a FTM here and gave birth to my wonderful little boy 8 days ago. It was not an easy pregnancy as I was so sick the entire time, by the end I was so ready to get him out. I ended up having to be induced at 39 weeks for my BP and he came at 39+2 after 36 hours of grueling labor. I am so happy he’s finally here and our couple days in the hospital together bonding were amazing (aside from all the nurses coming in and out). We’re all healthy!

Now that we’re home and trying to get into a routine, I find that I get these bouts of sadness throughout the day (much worse in the evenings). Dad is back to work and baby boy has been so good. Since birth he barely cries, only when he’s hungry and will usually go a couple hours at a time at night between feedings where he sleeps well. I feel very fortunate for this and my husband has been great and very helpful around the house. Although it’s still such a huge adjustment. I have 12 weeks off from work paid so the stress of getting back to work and money isn’t there and we have a ton of loving family support. In addition to this, we did everything to make sure our home was ready for baby and got all of our projects done before his arrival.

Yet, I find myself sitting here going back and forth with my emotions daily. I’m so happy he’s here and am so in love with my little family, but at the same time I feel so sad and just not myself at all. I feel lonely and wonder how I’m going to do this new phase of life and almost miss when I was pregnant even though I was so miserable. I also feel anxious about my little boy growing and not capturing all my moments with him. I tell my husband, but I know he doesn’t fully understand. From what I read this is normal, but curious if you other mammas struggled with this and how did you cope?? I’m just ready to feel normal and happy again!! Hoping this wave passes as I get into weeks 2 and 3 postpartum, because these feelings are miserable. 🤞🏼

Pic of my little man for fun ☺️