Friday night I went out drinking with strangers. I completely blacked out and found out later that one of them had taken advantage of me. I had a hand shaped bruise across my neck, as well as numerous bruises and cuts all over my body. I am so shaken up I cant stop crying.. I can barely eat. I feel so disgusted and violated. I dont know what to do. I went and saw a sexual assault nurse who did an examination and I got tested for STDs. But my husband is so furious with me. He sees it as me cheating on him and is so cold and callous. He is working all day every day and refused to let me go see my family for the reunion we've been planning for months. My family lives all across America and I only get to see them once a year. His family lives here and they all think what happened is my fault. I've been sleeping on the floor in the closet because he no longer feels comfortable sharing a bed with me. He barely looks at me and wont speak to me unless needed. This past year I've been diagnosed with type 1 diabetes, my best friend killed himself, and I've had 4 miscarriages. The most recent was less than a month ago. I just need him to love me and help me through this because I'm hurting so much.. I did not go out with the intention of this happening. I wanted to go out and drink a little to help with the pain I've been feeling from everything. What do I do? Will our relationship ever be okay again? I feel so isolated and unloved.