Its finally hitting me...

I had my miscarriage and d&c 5 weeks ago. I started my period on Monday. And it starting to truly hit me today that I no longer have my baby!! It doesn't help that I'm working with two super prego girls who are due in 3 and 6 weeks. And I got a notification about what would've been my anatomy scan for next Friday! I haven't cried since I woke up from my d&c and now I can't seem to stop! 😭😭😭 And my job won't let me go home early!