9w 2d ultrasound no baby

Kimberly
Well I have had 4 kids. No miscarriages. Here I am 36 years old with number 5 and I knew something was wrong. For the first time I didn't want to tell anyone I was pregnant. I didn't feel like I was but I had all the symptoms. Everything. Super sore breasts and nipples, nausea, vomiting, exhaustion, yet here today I sat in the doctors office and he started the ultrasound. I saw nothing. Neither did he. He said this isn't a normal pregnancy. I See a large yolk sac, debris and no baby. But there's definite debris from a baby....I just lay there. I wasn't really surprised. I had wanted to get in sooner bc I felt it wasn't right. But I thought I must be wrong bc it's progressing, I'm gaining weight, having symptoms etc. but I started getting excited about having a baby, even though it didn't feel real. Now it begins to sink in. To make it worse I won't miscarry. He thinks it will keep going like it has with no baby, so I go see him next week to discuss a D &C. In the mean time I get to have my own body as the enemy that wants to keep making me feel pregnant with nausea and pain and headaches.