Never been called beautiful.

My bf has never told me I was beautiful. Only ever “you look good” or “hmmm hmm cute”. But going through his phone he was texting his ex and told her she was as beautiful as she was the day they first met. He told her this yesterday. And I asked him about it and he told me he was trying to make her feel better bc she was going through stuff. When I’m going through stuff he tells me to suck it up, grow up, and move on with life. He never tried to comfort me. I caught him texting another girl a few weeks ago and he called her beautiful too and he claims his friends had his phone. I’m not sad, I’m not happy, not angry, I have no emotion to the situation. Or my bf. I try to be sexy and he yells “yasss mammiii”. I don’t know anymore. I’m lost.