Am I the only one?

Maybe it’s cuz I’m used to it at this point, but I feel better having at least one pimple on my face?? Like having completely clear skin, I feel like my face looks ugly compared to when I have one or two pimple on my face. Idk why 😂 like I hate when I have a lot but just a little bit to “add” to my face. Fucking weird Ik.