6 months exactly since my miscarriage ended

I've been so incredibly depressed this week, crying, and drinking for no reason. And I just realized that exactly 6 months ago, today was the last day of my miscarriage. It's also 6 months + 1 week since I ended my relationship of over 2 years.

No wonder I cant stand the apartment I'm still living in. No wonder I feel so alone. No wonder ive been thinking about it so much. No wonder I've been craving the feeling of holding a baby.

God make it stop please.