Young & Possibly Pregnant

Ladies, I don’t know what to do. My partner and I had protected sex but I’ve been having pregnancy symptoms like fatigue, nausea, headaches, bloating, no appetite. It could be a result from stress but I don’t know. I still need to test, it’s been almost 3 weeks. I’m supposed to start my period soon. I’ve had one other pregnancy scare, but that’s only because my period was a day or two late. I didn’t feel like this whatsoever. Like, you know, the motherly instinct?

My mom knows I’m sexually active. She knows we only use condoms. I just don’t know what I’d tell her if I ended up being pregnant. She was a young mom, too. She was 15. My grandma was 16. She’s always told me that no matter what happens, I have options.

I’ve always thought that if I were to become pregnant when I wasn’t ready, I would probably have an abortion. Not because I’m a heartless human being but in my opinion, it’s unfair to the child to be put up for adoption when it could grow up and wonder why his/her/their parents didn’t want it. I’m in anxiety and depression recovery right now. I have mild cerebral palsy as well. My cousin of same generation has it much worse.. but I’m thinking it’s hereditary even though there’s been few cases of that.

My boyfriend has a load of medical records. He has severe scoliosis, chiari malformation, and some other things that have been passed down from his grandmother to his mother to him. He’s had over 13 surgeries in attempt to help his pain, and he’s only 18. He is on antidepressants and a load of opioids to set aside pain... but the pain has only been getting worse.

I’ve always believed that I never wanted children, but if I’m afraid that ultrasounds will change that and make me develop overwhelming love.

If I end up being pregnant, I will be taking care of the child alone because my boyfriend cannot walk much without being in extreme pain. He cannot hold heavy things because it hurts his back.

But his mother is very against abortion.. she told me that if I ever get pregnant by her son, she expects me to give birth and keep it because the baby is a miracle since he was on HGH shots and lowered his chances of fertility.

I know I need to test before I worry too much but I need some advice on what to do.