I just wanted some input or advice or anything like that.

I’ve been with my boyfriend for a long time. It’ll be 7 years on aug 4. & we have a 3 year old. With our anniversary coming up I’ve been thinking how far apart we’ve become. Distant. It’s been a couple months since I’ve tried leaving him & since then, things have been better but I’m still not happy. I love him but I’m really not in love with him. I feel as though, he’s very Manipulative. If I try breaking up with him, he somehow convinces me to stay. My friends tell me to stay and my parents as well. My mom would let me stay at her place if anything ever happened but she still thinks I should stay. Other people think I should stay solely for the reason that we’ve been together for so long. If I talk to him, he’ll just get me to stay. I’d honestly like to leave a note and leave one day. Explaining my feelings and then giving him some time and maybe meeting up with him to talk about things .

It’s really because I have no romantic feelings towards him. He’s attractive but I’m not attracted. I’m horny but don’t want to sleep with him. I wouldn’t even know how to tell him that tho.

Also I’ve been with him from 17-24 years old and he’s kinda controlling. So I’ve never felt free and even now, i feel trapped (in the relationship).

Also I walked in on him reading his Xbox live messages & I couldn’t read it all but I saw ‘hey you :-)’ and he cleared the conversation along with the rest of the conversations.

I love him and I wish him the best but I can’t live like this

My child deserves to grow up in a household filled with real love.