Update: thanks for the advice ladies. I blamed him for months for my actions and realized I have a lot of deeper issues. I have finally accepted responsibility for what I did. I started the turmoil in our marriage.& I made him think it was his fault. I didn’t under emotional cheating. I thought what I did was wrong, but no big deal. Now I realize what I did and want to make it right. But he says it’s too late. I feel like a piece of shit. Just hopeless. 😞

I messed up and now my man of 10 years is saying he doesn’t want me. I’m begging him for another chance. He tells me to leave him alone, then texts me sad faces saying he doesn’t know what to do because he doesn’t believe I changed/can change. And that he loves me but doesn’t have faith. I feel like I have been begging him for weeks Do I stop, Do I keep trying. When I tell him I’ve begged enough he replies with “I begged you for months when I messed up” when I ask him if I should give up he replies “I can’t tell you what to do”. Wtf. what should I do? I was caught texting a guy and having lunch with him (bad I know)

He replied today “tell me who you’ve slept with and I’ll come back home” wtf. I am a wreck!!! 😭😭😭😭

Edit: no I haven’t slept with anyone