Reading so many stories about miscarriages, not having an heartbeat, still births have been scaring the shit out of me. I know this app was made to find comfort in sharing stories and asking for advice but sometimes I don’t even want to open the app 😩 This is my first pregnancy and I read a story about how at someone’s first appointment they found out the baby didn’t have a heart beat and had stopped growing at 6 weeks. Reminded me how I went to the emergency room for bleeding (I was 5 weeks) and they said they couldn’t find a heartbeat. I have my first actual appointment tomorrow now I’m scared shitless that I might experience that hurt. I’ve watched a close friend experience a miscarriage and my cousin had a stillbirth. I didn’t even want to tell anyone about my pregnancy in case it jinxed things 😩 Anyways I just typed all that to say I’m scared as hell, especially seeing so many losses.