Nervous nelly.

Not sure why I’m really posting this, I guess to just try to rant or vent.

Today is my 12 week appt, last time I had my 12 week appt. I found out I had miscarried just a few days before. I’m so beyond nervous for this appointment and I feel like I’m going to vomit. I try to relax and I know I should but it is so damn hard, my husband won’t be here for this one since he’s deployed right now, I don’t know what I’m gonna do if I lose this one too and he’s not here with me.