My first miscarriage was after my first son was born on May 10, 2011. I remember that day so clear since I was celebrating Mother's Day... I was so depressed since my cousin passed away 3 weeks before that happen then I got pregnant again in September 2011 and it was hard to get excited about that pregnancy and when it finally hit me but right when I was getting excited my grandfather passed away and I hit rock bottom! I wanted to give up on life.. I would cry every night.. But once I had him in my arms I felt invincible like nothing could break me! 3 1/2 years later we were trying again! I found out in August I was pregnant! At first I was scared. I told my 4 year old and he was excited! He couldn't wait for another brother! He didn't want a sister so he said! lol my 3 year wasn't too happy about it but would always hug and kiss my belly! I went in on Monday with my S/O to do the first ultrasound. We were so excited to see baby since I was 9 weeks 4 days.... My dr started the process and all we found was a sac. My heart dropped and I just wanted to cry then he sent me to get a Transvaginal u/s and she didn't find anything either.. But my dr wanted me to do blood test Monday and then on Wednesday to see if my numbers drop. I went yesterday got it done and patiently waited for the results. I got the a call and at that moment I knew something was wrong. I got the call and all I remember is calling myS/o and just said to him "numbers dropped" then called the boss and telling her I wasn't going to be able to come to work. Tuesday I go in for surgery to get the sac removed... I feel so numb now.. I let my family know about our situation.. My doctor said I could try again in 3-6 months if I wanted to but I feel like I should wait another year or so...