I've been struggling.

I am 9+2 today and am beginning to worry that I can not find the babies heartbeat on my doppler because it isn't there. I know the stigma following the whole doppler experience but I am determined to find it and end up disappointed each time I try. I've had my first ultrasound and the baby was measuring 5 days behind (which my ob told me was normal) and the heart rate at 7 weeks was 122. Its the lowest of all of my pregnancys, which is also concerning. My baby implanted in an odd spot. Not off in a bad way, it just makes it a bit more challenging to find on ultrasound until our little one gets bigger. I am struggling with being able to think positively about the whole thing and my next appointment isn't until the 22nd of this month.