Male infertility SUCKS

My husband and I have been trying for baby #1 for almost 3 years now. It's been almost a year since we found out he has a zero sperm count.

We have been doing HCG shots and going to a urologist but still not a lot of answers yet and we go back in September. If it's still zero he wants a biopsy done.

We are mid 20s but it's been taking a toll. Everyone around us are having babies. I work with babies. He doesn't want to talk about this. Its led to fighting and honestly just unhappiness and stress. He told me he would never use a donor sperm and he would possibly adopt or just not have kids. For me that doesn't work. We are on opposite sides.

Idk what to do. I feel alone. I feel depressed. I feel I'm not aloud to be upset cause its him with the problem. I just wish I knew the future. I'm heartbroken and nothing good has happened the last year. 😭😭😭