GOD PLEASE

So after 4 years of trying, Hearing women complain about pregnancy symptoms i get so sad i want al the symptoms i dont care i want it al i want to see 1 bfp just once God please i cry every month and again this month here i am 2 days late i feel sick i dont know if its me just imagining or my turn i swear i see a faint bfp but scared because when i look at it some more i feel like i dont se anything god i will take every symptom i cry on my bathroom floor every month everyday for 4 years