So one day I found myself in a really tough position. Trying to escape my mind & all the mental pain I was in I made a bunch of careless mistakes with a couple of guys (I totally regret it). Luckily I didn’t catch anything or give anyone any disease but I did end up pregnant & totally in shock but also sad & just confused. I had no clue who the farther was. So I told 1 of the guys that it was possible that he’d be the father. He was happy. This was someone who wanted “more” from that 1 night that we shared. He took me to doctors appointments when I would have really bad migraines. I experienced bleeding whilst pregnant and his mom took me to the hospital and there I found out my cervix was weak. From that point I completely shut everyone out. I still hadn’t told the other guy that it was possible he could be a father. I couldn’t. I was ashamed. I actually liked this guy. The other guy was there for me tho. Every time I needed him he was there but he had a very dark streak that occasionally would pop in & out. Once he was so upset he pulled his gun on me. I could t do it. So I finally told the other guy and he said he wasn’t ready to be a father just yet. So I went ahead & got the abortion. The first guy threatened me & my family. He tried to fight me that same day after the procedure. He came to my job & spat in my face calling me all kinds of names. Now I feel empty. I regret every decision I made from day 1.