Feeling helpless.

I have PMDD, and I usually get symptoms 2.5 weeks before my period (essentially, I have one “good” week a month). I don’t simply get sad or emotional, I sometimes ruin or deeply damage relationships, and even feel suicidal. It’s torture. The only thing that gets me through it is that I know it will end eventually (until it starts again...).

I can’t take birth control because of my family history and the serious clotting risk. Can anyone recommend any good books on dealing with it? Even my therapist knows there aren’t any options outside of BC. The only option I have is to just tolerate and accept it, and it’s really taking a toll on my mental health, and my life.