am i broken 😂

i lost my virginity on the 3rd of july with my boyfriend at the time. 
it hurt and i bled a lil, but overall i liked the feeling, but i didnt orgasm 
he went down on me for 1 and a half hours, and rather than having a gspot or clitoral orgasm, i went kind of like, numb?? like it stopped feeling good all together
his willy kind of curved like, downwards, so i thought maybe he's like not hitting the right spot, but we slept together 3 more times after the first time and still, nothing. 
we broke up, and a little bit after, me and a really good guy friend ended up hooking up which ended in him fingering me. he's 6 foot four, and has big hands, and it felt really nice but there was still no orgasm. 
a few days later, we ended up sleepingg together, without a condom so he pulled out. but even then, it didnt feel like it was gonna happen. 
then we tried again later with a condom, with his hands. NOTHING. 
he fingers me, he rubs my clit
AND I CANNOT COME TO CLIMAX 
however, not to be disrespectful but i dont think he is very big. i am only going off nudes and porn, but maybe it just cant reach?
but now, i occasionally flick my own bean, and i can do it. i bought a vibrating dildo, and the vibrating reached myself to clitoral orgasm, but then it ran out of batteries. i have tried multiple times, multiple paces, going for 15 minutes, 30 minutes, 5 minutes. i cant do it myself either. why can i not reach gspot orgasm? and why cant other people make me reach either!
IM GOING NUTS. 
when i sleep with somebody, i always make sure they cum, but because i dont, i get so sexually frustrated its not even funny. im ready again straight after we've had sex, and often the boys arent able to preform. 
what do i do? do i just accept i will never be satisfied? do i sleep around?
me and my fuckbuddy arent in a relationship, i have no ties
i just dont know what to do anymore 
i am constantly thinking about sex. i flirt with everyone. my best friend says i have the sex drive of a bloke. 
all i want is an orgasm that i didnt induce !
HELP!!!