I’m trying.

For over a year and a bit now my husband and I haven’t been as intimate. I have been trying since we had just had our son 2 months ago to give him what he wants/likes and rekindle our relationship and spice it up.

I’ve tried so much outside of my comfort zone. Since I’m not comfortable with my body, sexuality, the idea of sex itself it’s been hard for me. I’ve tried communicating more about what I want. Being a little more experimental in bed (I tried new positions he wanted, longer foreplay, I tried blindfolds, etc), I bought lingerie even though I am far from confident in my body.

So today I took the lingerie and decided to take some pictures for him. I sent them to him as he sat across from me because I wanted to see his reaction. After he got all of them he looked up at me and just said “you look good” with almost no expression then looked back at his phone surfing the internet like he normally does. I feel a little hurt by this and I don’t know if I’m in the wrong.

I’m trying so hard to make him want me and want to be with me every way possible. I want him to crave me. But it feels like I’m putting in so much effort for this but he really couldn’t care less.

I attached a few of the pictures I sent. The full body I actually edited to fade my stretch marks so he would maybe find my body more desirable. Please keep in mind I am only 2 months postpartum and super uncomfortable with my new body..